Friday, November 25, 2016

I really don't enjoy his current schedule. Luckily, it's not as bad as it could be. He's scheduled several days in a row, has a couple off, then another few...THEN usually 5-7 days off. So it basically ends up feeling like a week on, then a week off. When he's on, it's not very fun. But when he's off, it's awesome! He leaves for work around 6:15pm, and when he gets home around 7:45-8:00am. His shift is 7:00pm - 7:30am. He goes in a little earlier to get patient info before his shift starts. Then he comes home after report in the morning.

So he's getting home from work when I'm waking up in the morning. He takes a shower, we eat breakfast together, then he goes to sleep until around 5pm. We have a little bit of time together, we eat dinner, pack a lunch and then he goes to work.

I really don't enjoy being home alone, especially when it's dark, and lucky for gets dark around 4:30 now. haha. I don't sleep very well being pregnant, and then when Nathan's gone, I don't sleep well anyways. So often times when he's sleeping during the day, I climb in bed too and take a nap. And lucky for Ruby, she gets someone to sleep with her night AND day.

Lately the nights that Nathan works, I am binge watching Gilmore girls and researching baby things.

For Halloween we went to our wards Harvest Party. We invited Jess, Bo and their daughter Lucy. It was a chili and cinnamon roll competition. I made chili and Nathan made cinnamon rolls. We didn't win, but I liked ours best. After dinner, the primary put on a carnival for the kids, then there was a trunk or treat.

Halloween night we carved pumpkins. We gave ourselves 20 minutes and no drawing on the pumpkin, or stencils. It was actually really fun, and only took 15 minutes. :) Nathan went to work that night, so I vegged out on candy and watched Gilmore girls.

We also went to a Halloween thing that the city put on. There were TONS of people. They had games for the kids, and you could trick or treat around the parkway. But there were so many people, that it was basically just a super long, really slow line, and everyone ran out of candy because the turn out was so much bigger than expected. haha. But we got to wear our costumes...Ruby too.

Halloween is definitely not my favorite holiday. But I did enjoy the candy more than usual this year. ;)

Thursday, November 24, 2016

Nikelle threw a wonderful baby shower for Baby Boy Wallace. I felt so very loved and blessed. Here's a few pictures from it....

Our parents got us a carseat, and it was shipped straight to our place. It was exciting opening the box, and trying to figure out how to use it. I love the color!

We also took things all over town to exchange for bigger sizes. It was actually pretty fun, and now we have a wider range of clothes sizes. I washed most of everything, and we organized them into bins that fit under our bed. 

We also finished reorganizing our bedroom/used to be office, now nursery. 

Sunday, October 2, 2016

Well, since we all know how terrible I am at's my first pregnancy update! In the third trimester! I've also been terrible at taking weekly photos. I think we did weeks 10, 11, 12...then 22. Then 28. Yikes. I can't believe he'll be here in 12 short weeks. I remember when I was 12 weeks pregnant and felt like I had been pregnant forever. ha. 

At my last appointment, almost a month ago now, they said that baby was measuring ahead. She said that at my next appointment, which is this week, if he was still measuring ahead, they would probably do another ultrasound and measure everything. When we had our elective 3D ultrasound, the tech there seemed to be surprised at how big he was too, and that he already had some chub on his cheeks. I'm kind of hoping that he's still big, and that we had the original dates messed up. That would mean baby would arrive sooner, yay!

I thought I would go back in time a little bit and talk about what it's been like...

When I first got the positive pregnancy test, I almost couldn't believe it. I got into the doctor right away, and they tested all my levels. He had suspected a progesterone problem, and even though my levels were perfectly normal, because of my history of miscarriages...they got me on progesterone at 5 weeks. I was on it until about 13-14 weeks or so. That was not very fun. This may be too much TMI, but it's my blog so whatever. SO...vaginal suppositories. Not so awesome. I had 4 a day, two in the morning and two at night. I would lay down right after I put them in so everything wouldn't just slowly leak out, because...gross. They weren't very fun, but obviously I stayed on them just in case. It was a lot and it made me super bloated, super fast. I felt like I was showing right away, but we wanted to wait until we were further along to announce.

Once I was off the progesterone I felt much better. Also, I really didn't have much morning sickness. I mean, I did feel nauseous often, but I never threw up. It was kind of annoying because some people would say things like..."oh if you're not sick, you should feel terrible..blah blah blah." So it would cause extra stress that I really didn't want or need.

I didn't feel like I had any weird cravings, but if I realized I wanted something, I REALLY wanted it. There was like a week that all I wanted was like...breaded chicken. Chicken strips, nuggets, patties, whatever.  I also enjoyed quite a few crispy bean burritos, caesar salads, and lemonade. I was really put off by any red meat and steamed vegetables. Oh, one time I had texted Nathan that on his way home, he needed up pick up Honey Nut Cheerios. As the day went on, I realized, I really wanted them. So I ended up going to the store myself, and buying a HUGE box of Honey Nut Cheerios. Yum!

Pregnancy overall has really agreed with me. I haven't had any significant complaints or problems. I am starting to have a harder time sleeping, and if I'm on my feet too long, my feet get swollen. What has been most surprising is the emotional part of it. I haven't really ever been emotional, I am usually very easy going. But there have been a few times, when something hasn't gone exactly the way I thought it would, I would just cry. One time it was about not having snacks, another was plans had been postponed, and yet another was when Nathan switched to the night shift at work. Even just a little thing could tip me off. It's very strange.

We feel very blessed and are getting more and more excited as the weeks fly by.

We got pictures taken and they are basically my favorite. This was soon after I got my new haircut, we had found out we were pregnant about a month before, so it was good timing. ;)

Here are a few of my favorites.

We also took a few, using our Letterfolk board that we used to announce our pregnancy.

He did it! Nathan graduated from the nursing program! We are both so relieved and proud of his hard work! We had family come to celebrate with us. Nathan's dad, stepmom and siblings flew up from California. His grandparents flew up from Utah. And my sister came from Seattle. We also had all our family that already lived in town come too! Friday night was the general graduation from Columbia Basin College. Then Saturday afternoon was the separate nursing pinning ceremony. 

It was so exciting to see Nathan get pinned along with the friends that he had made along the way. After the ceremony, we headed back to my parents house, where we had set up the backyard for a taco bar! 

3 out of the 7 boys in his class. 

They all decorated their caps. This was Nathan's.

His scrubs, and his grad gown. (and honor tassels)

The backyard

Some of the goods. 



A few weeks after he graduated. Nathan and I travelled up to Spokane for him to take the NCLEX. We went a day early and spent the day exploring downtown. Then we had a pre-celebration dinner at The Melting Pot. The hotel we stayed in was literally in the same parking lot as the testing center. So he woke up and went and took his test. (He found out 2 days later he passed!!) After the test we went and did floating. Which is super awesome, and really relaxing. (learn more about it here)

Erin got his a stethoscope name tag for graduation. He now can officially use it!

 Nathan turned 26 in May! I made the best cupcakes in the world. Chocolate cupcakes with a reeses inside, topped with whipped peanut butter frosting. Delish! Also, this was the first time Ruby did something naughty. I had left the cupcakes on the table, which was near the couch, to cool when I went to the store to grab a few last minute things. When I got back...there was a cupcake missing and several bits out of other cupcakes. She just couldn't resist!

I crack myself up. At least I appreciated the decorations. 

Bananas, peanut butter, fruit and almond...cake? 
Ruby also turned 3 this year! Can't believe it! We feel so blessed to have found her, and "rescued" her at 6 months old. It may sound silly, but she really is my best little friend and I'm not sure what I would do without her.

I can't remember when we did this, but it was so much fun and I just found the pictures on the laptop.
At our local Ranch & Home, they sell these different kinds of popcorn, and they even sell sample bags of each kind. So we decided for an FHE activity, we'd pop the popcorn and do a blind taste test to see which kind we liked the best.

Red was determined the favorite. 

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

 It's been almost a year since the last time I posted. A lot has happened. I wanted to start blogging again, but felt like I couldn't until I got this out.

2015 was a hard year for me. I have a deeper understanding of a lot of things, myself, and the atonement of Jesus Christ.

March of 2015, I was 10 weeks pregnant. We were so excited, we couldn't wait to meet our baby. But I miscarried while we were away on a perfect vacation. I wanted to deny it, ignore what really happened. So for awhile, I was okay. I didn't think about it. I just tried to go on with life without really accepting it. I kept thinking, if we just would get pregnant again, I won't have to deal with these feelings. We didn't get pregnant right away. Month after month it became real. I cried. I grieved. I didn't get out of bed. I ignored work. I ignored friends. And I hurt. I hurt so deeply, and wanted so badly for my body to do what I wanted it to do. The months continued on, and I slowly stopped crying every time a new pregnancy was announced online, invitation to a baby shower or when I saw a pregnant woman at the store. I prayed for the pain to go away. I prayed that we could get pregnant again.

It happened! In September 2015 I got pregnant! But before I went to my first prenatal appointment, I miscarried...again. It was hard...again. Everything that I didn't process the first time, came along for the ride this time. I was sad. I was mad. And I was done. I wanted to make changes in my life, yet I didn't want to do anything. I wanted to spend time with friends, yet I didn't want to leave the house. I felt anxious about everything and nothing at the same time. I had panic attacks.

2016 came and I was SO ready to put 2015 behind me. I tried to have a new perspective, and I tried to have a positive attitude. But I was also feeling so differently than I had felt before. Nathan and I talked a lot about what I was feeling, how we could help me. We tried to be happy with how our life was right now. We prayed more. I received more priesthood blessings.  I tried to be patient. Around March, I started to feel a little better. I was wanting to go out more. I was feeling happy again. I realized that something inside of me hadn't been right. I didn't realize that I had been struggling with situational depression, or adjustment disorder. (This short article explains it better than I can if you're interested.) I felt so much relief admitting that I hadn't been okay. Then, during a blessing on Easter Sunday, I felt this burden literally lift from me. I was me again. I felt so happy. I felt hope for the future.

I know that a lot of people have struggled with the same things that I went through. It's not talked about...I don't know why. Miscarriages happen far more often than I knew. Without the support of my husband and my faith, I'm not sure how I would have handled everything, I'm sure it would have been even worse. I am so grateful for God's plan for me, everything works out eventually. Lessons are learned, empathy is gained, and you are made stronger.

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